Well it was bound to happen this would come out at some point. Just something I used to do once, before the darkness took over everything. This is my first poem in six years. And it came out in a car tonight. On the highway. At night. 45 minutes from home….. with no paper! Notepad: thanks for being my app for that.
Set Afire and Content to Burn
What is this burning within me
enveloping every last part of my insides
in a raging inferno?
Do I brave the doubt that stalks me
and release these smoldering words from my lips,
set loose my vulnerability like a plague upon the world
and rock myself to the core?
I cannot reclaim them once they are set free–
like feathers in the wind–
they cannot be nullified, erased,
nor can the existence of them be denied.
Once I let go,
once I loose them from their bindings,
they will fall like rain upon the ears of you all
and delight you in their dance as they flutter by.
Ah, but my heart aches for the freedom I think I feel,
the absence of shackles almost as before but not quite.
And I recoil at the thought,
for I remember the shadows,
I can still feel the darkness lying in wait
to extinguish this brilliant light.
I watch as the winds come and beat the flames to almost nothing
and they spring back like a tightened coil
higher than before,
burning hotter and brighter,
so much so were it any more intense,
it could almost vaporize you in a flash.
And their presence eats away at me now–
Jehovah God, my kind and loving God,
I cannot quell this thirst that burns within–
and I pray for wisdom, patience, and peace.
I beseech You for guidance and mercy
to keep this nervous mind at ease.
thoughts swirl around and envelop me in thick, rank smoke,
and I tremble for I cannot get away.
I am overpowered and they are cast free–
Could it be,
dare I say it is,
that the ember that almost expired in my heart is aflame,
with the light of glorious life?