I am the kind of girl that never gives less than her all, even when I may suspect that those on the receiving end may not be so appreciative of this. Regardless of the situation, I pour my entire self in and hope there isn’t a leak at the bottom to deflate the end result. In the end it isn’t so much a leak as it is an epic structural failure.
I feel archaic in some ways, because people used to operate with a certain code of conduct. So why is that I feel like I am the only one? I mean they had tact, decency, morals, sense, respect. They once had integrity. Now they let it all hang out and pretty much walk over whomever they want like it’s the norm. Like it’s acceptable. And here is the kicker: even people I wouldn’t expect. People I know who, for a fact, know better. They do all these self-serving, obnoxious, cruel, deceitful, disloyal things, and then advertise how good they are.
Would good people use, lie to, ignore, belittle, mislead, neglect, abuse, steal from others? Say they know it’s wrong and then keep doing it anyway? Would they give their attention to others over the one(s) that should be a higher priority? Treat them like a convenience, a toy, a trophy to rip off the shelf when they are bored and in need of killing some time?
One of the situations I so wish I could talk about so this would make sense… I really, truly cannot, because of confidentiality purposes. All I can say right now is that knife is pretty deep, but they have been cut off outside the minimal scope of necessity.
Today was not a good day. It’s been a long week preceded by an even longer November, and for the first time (with the exception of illness), I spent most of the day in bed. I got up at twelve and decided I wasn’t ready to tolerate anyone and promptly went back to sleep. My emotional agitation was eclipsed only by the nasty headache following me around like a lost puppy.